Christmas is Here!!

Oooh how I love the Christmas Holidays! It brings so much joy and happiness. Not to all, unfortunately, but for the most part, it does. And it does to me!

Well, this Blog I would like to dedicate to my new puppy, Lucky.

With his picture below, you can see what a cutie he is.

His name is Lucky, but to tell you the truth, I think I am the "lucky" one to have him.

Oh, and him me. he he We love him so much. He has trully been one of many gifts from God.

This is not ment to be a sad blog, but so you can understand why I feel so blessed,

I need to mention my other puppy Chewy.

I lost him this year in June. And after you loose a pet that's so dear to you, you tend to think twice before getting another pet. Especially if it's the same "kind."

Well, I loved my Chewy very very much. And got very lonely without him.

So I thought for a moment that if I were ever to get another dog, he would have to be a totally different color, and I would name him totally different to "Chewy." I thought for a moment, "I would like him to be a Shih-tzu or close to that, with a white coat mixed with brown or gray.

Well, God knew the desires of my heart even before they reached it.

He was pleased to place "Lucky" in my path. A family needed to give him away and so they found us. Now, Lucky is filling a hug void that was in our hearts.

He is totally lovable, sweet as can be, playful, and willing to give us all the love and attention WE need. ha ha He's definitely our gift from God. So, Merry Christmas!

I introduce to you...

"Lucky" (my Shih-tzu)

And this was...

"Chewy" (my Pekignese)

Long Blog

Well, Hello everyone. It's been a while since I've posted anything. It's been quite a month! You'll see when I post my 3 "Venting" Blogs. So, I hope you've got a little time because this is going to be a loooong "venting" session.

"Venting Session #1" Written 11/05/07

Cant stand being lonely! It's one of the worste feelings in the world!
My family just moved back up North, where they used to live, and the feeling you get when you enter an empty home is aweful!! My tears come down when I wake up as well as when I get home from work, and defenitely when I lay my head to rest.

I miss them dearly. I miss the kids screaming and playing or even fighting. Let me just say, I had 7 neices and nephews living here temporarily. My brother and sister in law as well.
I miss the baby crying and laughing. I even miss the dogs barking!
I miss the kids yelling, "Tiiiiittiiiiiiiii, you're home!!"
I miss the loud T.V.-- even while you were trying to sleep! I mis the barging in to my room "just because." I miss them calling 'auntie' to break a fight.

::interruption::
I just recieved a phone call from the kids school notifying me that one of my nephews was absent today. Duuuuhh!! He's gone! They're ALL gone! :(
All that's left here are me and my ole' folks, lonely, sometimes crying, and definitely missing everyone! But sure, I'll notify his mom! ::sigh::

Anyway, I'm sure this won't be my last blog pouring out my heart, concerning my family. I'll just take a deep breath and come back when I need to vent!


"Venting Session #2" Written 11/06/07

I'ts almost an instant crush as soon as I open the door when I get home from work. I miss the kids so so much. It's empty! The house is completely empty!! And the feeling of loneliness of "singlehood" blending in as well does not help any!
I can't imagine how it feels for my mom to be home all day long without them. She's basically stuck at home by herself because she doesn't have a car, therefore, she cannot work or even go window shopping to distract her mind! Lord help her!

Well, if you don't know, just a few months ago we lost our doggy. He was our first puppy and we lost him. (In a bad way too.) So having my family gone, and having him gone are two huge hits at once. The day after I lost him was one of the worst days I've ever had. I felt such a huge void in my heart (and in my room). As soon as I awoke and realized that he wasn't there and that he wasn't going to to be with me ever again. I cried... and have cried ever since. (Not daily, but often enough.)
This same "crushing" void in my heart is now felt without my family here. The very moment I awoke and realized that they had left and they were now miles and miles away (actually, a state away) and that I wasn't going to see them every morning, day and night, I couldn't help but cry.
And I've been crying ever since.
I was afraid of this, but I realize how much I cherish them. I love my family with all my heart. God has trully blessed me. He has trully blessed us all.

Im sad.
For this reason and several different ones too, but I'll stick to this specific topic. There would be too much to cover if I went on about my "other" reasons.
Anyway, I wish everything could have worked out for them here. I don't blame them... they tried. They were here for almost 2 years. Don't you agree that they tried?
::long sigh:: I'm crushed.


"Venting Session #3" Written 11/10

Well, it's me aain. It's been a week since my family moved. The wound still hurts... but I think it is slowly healing. I would love for them to come back, tomorrow if they could, but I can just imagine how difficult it was for them to adjust to things already. I don't want to be selfish... believe me, if it were up to me, they would still be here. (I love them so much.) But, that's life. life's experiences are not promised to be easy. They are tough, for the most part. Anyway, I'm planning on calling them later today. (I'll update you on that.)

On another not...
A friend, who is very dear to me, finally called me! We had not been in contact for a while so the call was extremely surprising to me, not to mention extremely important! We didn't speak much, but I suppose our next "chat" will be longer.

With this, I conclude by saying, "A person's relationship with God, their family, and with their friends is very important." I believe that a person without these, especially the 1st, is more than likely a sad individual.


-End of Venting Sessions-

Yep. That was the end of that. Since then, it's been about a month or so. My family is doing well. I read an email from brother not long ago and he says that they all miss us dearly, and they even miss Florida. He says that hopefully, when the 3 older kids finish school, he will be looking forward to coming back to Florida... this time, for good.
So, I still miss them dearly, but as I've heard for so long (and even experienced), time heals all wounds.